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I just get this feeling of understanding, like nothing really matters in the vast things of everything, i saw another post here on that, but i feel more. Theres also one version thats like this but with a very strange sense of paranoia… When you look beyond the “nothing matters” into, WHY space is how it is, like are we parts of an atom? are we living thing, together? Im not superstitious or belive in hocus pocus, but this is special. Ive knows these theories before, i allways have its FACT but sometimes for a split second its like my brain unlocks a deeper understanding, but still cant understand and i cant hold on to this feeling unless its like a really deep convo with someone likeminded, in person. Its like its a part of my brain that isnt active, ever, but then is that is made for like, higher purpose. Not ego not superstition, just like it was made for something that can grasp everything, yet its links cant. The rest of the brain isnt made for it. I want to elaborate more, but im afraid it will get too long. Please PLEASE link any form of research on this or likewise experiances. I need to understand